change

While on vacation last week I went for a drive in Waterloo. As I drove I thought and prayed and allowed myself to really feel what I was feeling, I realized that there have been a lot of difficult changes in my life over the past 6 months. Changes in relationships, both good and hard. Upcoming changes in living space which I'm sure will bring other changes. Changes inside of me and outside of me that all swirl together to either make me laugh with giddiness or, more often it seems, cry. As drove I spoke out loud to God, "do you actually love me? do you actually care about me and all these things going on around me? do you actually plan to do anything about all of this?" A Smart Car turned in front of me. I looked at the back of it. There were two bumper stickers. "Jesus loves You" and "God has plans for you". As much as part of me wants to shrug that off as coincidence more of me knows it was God and His gift to me.